Tori Angeli (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
tori_angeli) wrote2008-05-01 06:05 pm
tori_angeli) wrote2008-05-01 06:05 pm
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I rant. And rant. And rant.
I'm done.
I'm done!
Done arguing. Done fighting. Done getting upset over things that just aren't worth getting upset over.
From now on, the rest of the fandom can argue with itself. I'll continue to have intelligent discussions, but I refuse to play any childish games over who can have the last word, because that's all these arguments turn into. Nobody's interested in learning anything from them or from each other, nobody's interested in any opinion but their own, and whoever disagrees is not allowed in the club. I joined this fandom to enjoy myself. This is my hobby, not my calling.
I'll keep writing the kind of thing I always write. I'll keep the friends I've made while I've been here. Heck, I'll even keep ranting about things that bug me. But I won't go on a righteous crusade against the forces of evil about whether or not Raph would rape his brother, because 1) if the answer's not obvious to you right off the bat, you're probably not the sort of rational discussion I'm looking for and 2) there are many more important things in my life I can be corrupting besides the joy I take in creating something and sharing it with people it might bring joy to. I don't want to sour my relationship with my hobby. It's something I enjoy very much, and I didn't start writing in it so I could convince people of petty things contained in the fandom.
I just can't keep poisoning myself with the opinions of people who think incest and rape are kinks and not crimes. I'm all for having an open mind, but some things are simply wrong. Saying you have an opinion about something doesn't make you immune to being wrong, either--it's just something to hide behind, a word that means nothing in the end, because what you believe speaks so much louder than what you feel on instinct, and the things you don't say are as important as the things you do. Integrity is in the mind as well as the heart, and following your instincts doesn't give you integrity, it just means you lack self-control. So write your fics and defend them however you like, but here's the thing about me that no argument will change: I will continue to disagree, and say it's wrong, and believe we should not desensitize people to subjects like there by making it pornographic just because we ourselves might find it forbidden enough to be "hot." There's my stubbornness, and there's no point in arguing with me about it.
I'll go out on a limb and say I've written the most realistic rape in the fandom. This is rape, not lust-driven grinding that somehow ends in pleasure for the victim as well as the perp. It's humiliating and degrading and messy and agonizing and often ends in death. It rarely begins or ends in lust. It's torture, plain and simple. Interracial rapes are often done with objects. It's not hot, it's not sexy, it's messed up.
"If you don't like it, don't read it." Well, that's the easiest rule to follow ever. How about you try not arguing with me when I say it's OOC? When I say it's unrealistic? I honestly don't care what you write if I'm not going to read it, but call it what it is, at least. I'm not oppressing you--do you see me oppressing you? Don't tell me I'm a bad person for not accepting your rape kink. No matter what you seem to think, it's not the same thing as being homophobic or sexist or racist. Go write your rape and refuse to deviate or branch out and make yourself a better author. I don't care. But don't tell me it's something it's not, because all it really is is you writing, in an unrealistic and OOC way, an act of torture you personally think to be sexy. It turns your crank, so you write it. I'm willing to let that be. Just don't say it's anything else, or that I'm the one who's messed up.
So. Since grown-ups are supposed to be able to deal with each other, I'm going to do my part and stop trying to argue with drama addicts who can't take opinions besides their own. I see enough of that when my mother watches Fox News. I'm not here for that. I'm here to write about turtles, okay? Humanoid turtles who fight with ninjutsu and aren't old enough to drink. That's every bit as petty as all this is. It's just not worth fighting about.
Non-conformity is just another way to conform. Stealthy Stories isn't any better. In fact, SS is simply the domain of an overgrown child with a god complex. Differing opinions aren't welcome there, and neither is free speech. It's run by people who judge your goodness without knowing you or even having any business doing so. I'm done with it. So-called tolerance just isolates a different group of people than before.
So um, soul is cleansed now. I go back to fanfic writing. The fifteenth and final chapter of The Halfway Point is in the beta's hands, as is the prologue of a new Mike-centric epic entitled Counterplay. Heck, I'm even finished with the first chapter of a sequel to The Halfway Point. I'm thinking of posting excerpts from all my unfinished projects on this journal so I can get people to hold me accountable for finishing them.
I'm done!
Done arguing. Done fighting. Done getting upset over things that just aren't worth getting upset over.
From now on, the rest of the fandom can argue with itself. I'll continue to have intelligent discussions, but I refuse to play any childish games over who can have the last word, because that's all these arguments turn into. Nobody's interested in learning anything from them or from each other, nobody's interested in any opinion but their own, and whoever disagrees is not allowed in the club. I joined this fandom to enjoy myself. This is my hobby, not my calling.
I'll keep writing the kind of thing I always write. I'll keep the friends I've made while I've been here. Heck, I'll even keep ranting about things that bug me. But I won't go on a righteous crusade against the forces of evil about whether or not Raph would rape his brother, because 1) if the answer's not obvious to you right off the bat, you're probably not the sort of rational discussion I'm looking for and 2) there are many more important things in my life I can be corrupting besides the joy I take in creating something and sharing it with people it might bring joy to. I don't want to sour my relationship with my hobby. It's something I enjoy very much, and I didn't start writing in it so I could convince people of petty things contained in the fandom.
I just can't keep poisoning myself with the opinions of people who think incest and rape are kinks and not crimes. I'm all for having an open mind, but some things are simply wrong. Saying you have an opinion about something doesn't make you immune to being wrong, either--it's just something to hide behind, a word that means nothing in the end, because what you believe speaks so much louder than what you feel on instinct, and the things you don't say are as important as the things you do. Integrity is in the mind as well as the heart, and following your instincts doesn't give you integrity, it just means you lack self-control. So write your fics and defend them however you like, but here's the thing about me that no argument will change: I will continue to disagree, and say it's wrong, and believe we should not desensitize people to subjects like there by making it pornographic just because we ourselves might find it forbidden enough to be "hot." There's my stubbornness, and there's no point in arguing with me about it.
I'll go out on a limb and say I've written the most realistic rape in the fandom. This is rape, not lust-driven grinding that somehow ends in pleasure for the victim as well as the perp. It's humiliating and degrading and messy and agonizing and often ends in death. It rarely begins or ends in lust. It's torture, plain and simple. Interracial rapes are often done with objects. It's not hot, it's not sexy, it's messed up.
"If you don't like it, don't read it." Well, that's the easiest rule to follow ever. How about you try not arguing with me when I say it's OOC? When I say it's unrealistic? I honestly don't care what you write if I'm not going to read it, but call it what it is, at least. I'm not oppressing you--do you see me oppressing you? Don't tell me I'm a bad person for not accepting your rape kink. No matter what you seem to think, it's not the same thing as being homophobic or sexist or racist. Go write your rape and refuse to deviate or branch out and make yourself a better author. I don't care. But don't tell me it's something it's not, because all it really is is you writing, in an unrealistic and OOC way, an act of torture you personally think to be sexy. It turns your crank, so you write it. I'm willing to let that be. Just don't say it's anything else, or that I'm the one who's messed up.
So. Since grown-ups are supposed to be able to deal with each other, I'm going to do my part and stop trying to argue with drama addicts who can't take opinions besides their own. I see enough of that when my mother watches Fox News. I'm not here for that. I'm here to write about turtles, okay? Humanoid turtles who fight with ninjutsu and aren't old enough to drink. That's every bit as petty as all this is. It's just not worth fighting about.
Non-conformity is just another way to conform. Stealthy Stories isn't any better. In fact, SS is simply the domain of an overgrown child with a god complex. Differing opinions aren't welcome there, and neither is free speech. It's run by people who judge your goodness without knowing you or even having any business doing so. I'm done with it. So-called tolerance just isolates a different group of people than before.
So um, soul is cleansed now. I go back to fanfic writing. The fifteenth and final chapter of The Halfway Point is in the beta's hands, as is the prologue of a new Mike-centric epic entitled Counterplay. Heck, I'm even finished with the first chapter of a sequel to The Halfway Point. I'm thinking of posting excerpts from all my unfinished projects on this journal so I can get people to hold me accountable for finishing them.
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Fortunately with have good authors like you who respects the characters and the whole fandom... Thanks for that! By yeah, Tori, with this post - you're y hero even more !! (geez you must think i'm a crazy fangirl of you at every post XD)
Can't wait to see for the last chapter and your others projects ! (will you write some one shot like your Quality Time during the year, by any chance?)
*hugs*
Crystal
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I love you to death, Cry. And I'm way flattered, I really am. I'm undeserving.
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Um, clearly I've missed out on some heated battles somewhere and I'm feeling sort of guilty that I wasn't there, wherever it was, to support you, Tori.
But for what its worth, Brava, Chica!
I am with you, word for word on this.
((HUGS))
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Love the icon.
<3
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And I'm thrilled about the next chapter of "Halfway" being beta'd! And about your new stories. *And* about the possibility of you posting excerpts... That sounds like a VERY good idea. :)
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I'm sorry that ppl have been distorting poor Raphy and making him OOC :p
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And yes, Mike-centric! But it has lots of the others, too. MASSIVE fic.
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Why do ya even bother, luv? You're just riling yourself up & feeding him/her. Just keep doing what you do oh-so-amazingly & let 'em write their OOC fics. Most likely, they'll get the feedback they're entitled to if they chose to write it in unrealistic terms. Screw it.
On another note, sad to see the end of The Halfway Point but I'm squirming in anticipation for the sequel & Counterplay. Get to it, girl! I needa indulge in a good story!
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